Thursday, July 20, 2017

Focus renewed

This past week the family and I went on vacation to California where we hung out at the beach and the pool while getting sunburn.  We also tried out a few new restaurants and my wife and I taking our traditional trip to Downtown Disney so that we could eat at Jazz Kitchen.

Overall it was a fun time and now here I am back in Vegas, back to the work grind and back to working on our personal goal of saving up for the down payment to our house.

Over the past few weeks it's been on my mind again that I need to get back on the weight loss bandwagon.  Sometimes I have jumped into it full throttle and other times I have slowly lead into it.  Each time I've come up with a reason to have it fail.

However, if the wife and I can focus on our financial goals for so long with so few hiccups there is no reason why I cannot focus on this goal with the same intensity.

We did all we could to get out of debt.
We continued to work at it to get an emergency fund in the back so that we never have to use credit again.
We are now saving towards a down payment so we can buy a house next year.

We don't make excuses, we just do it.

So, why can't I do this with my weight loss?
I can, I just have to want to do it.

So, here I sit working on Phase 1.
Every time I have done this I left the hardest thing, for me, for last.  And usually when I get there I give up and relapse.

Soda's and Energy Drinks.
Josie told me this shit only belongs in my toilet, and only to clean it at that.
These things are bad for you - I know this and yet I have never cared.  They are delicious and I love the taste.

So, This time Phase 1 is me cutting these out of my life as much as possible.
I talked to the wife about it a little over Vacation and I made myself a promise on the last day of our vacation.

I promised that when we got back I would go a week without a soda or an energy drink.
Some of you Scoff at this but these are my biggest struggle.  If I can get these down to just something I occasionally do socially then I win.  Currently they are part of my daily diet.  They cut into my budget.

Here I sit, 2 days free.
It sucks - I am not going to lie.
I am currently entering day 3 of working overnights at work.
Normally Overnights meant that on my way to work I would buy 2 Energy Drinks just to get through the night and I'd probably down a Dew during that time as well.
I've survived the first two nights.
It bloody sucks.

I've got a headache.
I'm tired.
I'm Thirsty and it's a thirst Gatorade and Water isn't quenching.
I WANT a Fruit Punch Rockstar and this want burns in me.

If there was one in front of me at this very moment I would have a hard time not drinking it.  I'd probably chug it and tell myself that I'll start over again tomorrow.

However, I am 2 days deep and will be 3 days strong by the time I wake up tomorrow after work.

This first week is a struggle.
In two weeks I will face another real struggle as I will end up working Inventory at work which is a 5 day stretch where I have to work earlier than I want to be awake and on those shifts it is HABIT for me to hit up 7-11 on the way to work for an energy drink to make it through my day.
This is the HABIT I am breaking.
I am forming new habits.

I am kicking my addiction to Soda's and Energy Drinks.

It sucks but when I get through it I will be better off.

My last energy drink was the first day of vacation when I drove to California.  I consciously didn't drink any while I was out there.  I cut way back on Soda's.
I capitalize random words for no reason.

When I came home from vacation I was at 264 pounds.  This is far from my worst weight but it is still far from where I want to be.  My ultimate goal is to get to or below my wedding weight by the time my 5th anniversary rolls around and I take my wife back to Hawaii.

Goodbye Soda
Goodbye Energy Drinks
I need a nap.

I know it has been a while since i have posted regularly but I want to try to get back to that.
I plan on detailing my journey.
Hopefully I haven't lost all of my readers from the old days.

Let me know if you are reading.
Give me tips, advice, yell at me and call me fatty.
I'll be back.