It appears as though June is going to go down as my 3rd lowest month of total posts.
This one breaks the tie with the 2nd lowest.
I'm at this stage where I know that changes have been made but because I see myself every single day (and because I have low self image to begin with) I don't notice them but based on comments and conversations with other people around me..... well, I guess there is no conspiracy to have an entire group of people lie to me just to boost my confidence.
I started this journey at over 300 pounds and soon enough I'll have dropped 100 (well, give me a few months at least) and I have bought smaller clothes.
People at work lately have been asking me what my secret is, or asking me to share advice or whatever. Some of them are sincere and generally want to make an effort to try to lose weight and others want to lose weight without putting in any effort.
Below is what I generally share. Some people tell me that it's just "too hard" though and I know those people want to change but don't want to have to go through the effort. Others keep asking me questions.
Oddly enough, I'm really enjoying the attention.
The advice I usually give:
1 - Stop eating so much fast food.
2 - Pack your lunch
3 - cut down on snacks
4 - count your calories
#4 being the biggest one. You can snack and eat fast food as long as you are aware of how many calories you need to have in a day to reach your desired goals and consistently stay around that goal.
If you are going to tell me that it's just too difficult to count calories then you just haven't reached that point of no return where you want to make a change and are serious about it.
I tried a million different times to lose weight and every time it failed because I just didn't want it bad enough.
I love food too much and eventually gave up.
However, the big 300 scared me straight and I have been doing great since then.
I'm just now getting to the point where I'm getting used to actually eating a smaller amount and not craving more afterwards or constantly craving snacks.
Don't get me wrong, I still want snacks. Just not as often is all. A couple days ago I gave into temptation and bought a bag of Spicy Nacho Doritos and accidentally at the whole bag over the course of one work shift. My Bad.
I know I'm thinner.
I know I'm smaller.
I know my body has gone through a good transformation so far.
However, I still see the same fat-ass when I look in the mirror.
When I see my gut hanging over.
When I see the pictures my fiance took of me, topless, at the beach.
I still hate what I see.
This means I still have a lot of room for improvement.
While 200 pounds is my next major goal I've also added another one.
Whatever my weight is come Halloween I need to be a lot skinnier because I think me and my boy are both going as Deadpool.
I don't want to be a big fat Deadpool. Nobody wants to see a fat man in tights.