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Thursday, May 24, 2012

As The Debt Winds Down

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---I cannot control how people make me look elsewhere, but I can control how people attempt to make me look on my own blog and thus, unfortunately, I am turning to having to moderate comments before they become posted.  ---

I know that my non poker posts don't get many hits compared to when I actually talk about poker, but whatever.
Maybe by the time next year rolls around I'll actually be able to get out on a more regular basis and at least be able to come at y'all once a week with an actual poker post.  However, until that time it's all random all the time.

Today is kind of debt-centric.

Of course, I have had the minor setback of the $6300 oil change which I started detailing here. However, even that is just a minor setback at this point.

The funny thing is that other than my initial annoyance I really haven't let that get me down.  I reacted to it well and am of the opinion that even if I cannot get the guy or company to pay for the damaged that was caused I can live with that and have no ill will.  I truly am trying to turn over a new leaf and look at life differently and I think that the biggest determining factor is the fact that I am so close to being out of debt that adding a little bit more temporarily doesn't sent me into a panic and depression and an "Oh shit, how am I going to afford this" like it used to.
No, now I look at it as a "shit happens" type of scenario that I will overcome and learn from.  This is a totally different grrouch than the past and I am thankful for it.

I am also trying to turn over some other new leaves in my life. I am trying to be more patient and nicer in general. I am trying to be less rude and offensive (towards other people).  I'm still going to be rude and I'm still going to make my jokes but I am going to go back to making them focused on me.  Self Deprecating humor is pretty much the best shit there is anyways and I can say whatever I want and others won't take offense because the joke is on me and not on them.  This will take time, but I'm working on it - one insult at a time.

In this section here I wrote and deleted 2-3 paragraphs worth of words about 7 times.
I guess that means that whatever I was trying to express I should keep to myself or that I just haven't found the right words to put it into proper perspective.  I am unsure of which is the correct answer though.
It's going to take a while but I should turn it into it's own separate post.  This is one of those few ideas that I need to figure out a way to flesh out and let it become whatever it needs to become.
It's about mortality and relationships.
Of course, I could just fall asleep tonight and wake up never thinking about it again which would be easier :)

Speaking of which - I'm really tired for some reason.  I think it has to do with having to be in a long boring meeting for 8 hours.  I do not miss the classroom setting!

*Right before posting* This post was less debt-centric than I had planned - but I don't want to delete the whole thing and not have something to post!

Stay Thirsty My Friends

23 comments:

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    1. I can hardly wait to hear your spin.

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    2. funny that even after this long your jealousy and bitterness still shows through - even though you delete the comments a few seconds after you post them.

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    3. I was joking but I thought it wouldn't come off as that :(

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    4. So I deleted the comment. I figured it was best.

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  2. Must have been one interesting relationship ...

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    1. You don't even know a quarter of it! God we really really really fucked each other up.

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  3. My football picks are coming in a few months - we'll be rich, RICH!!!

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    1. Ok - I will stake my sports betting career on your picks sir.
      I sure as shit hope you do well and I don't end up homeless giving hand-jobs for a warm sandwhich

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    2. That could be a setback to your new attitude..

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    3. set backs are all temporary!
      I mean, with a name like Coach, how can I go wrong by following him?
      He is a born leader, he is destined to lead me to greatness and riches!

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  4. Dude, the day you realize that you - that we - need to moderate our comments is, for some reason, tinged with bittersweet. For me it was because I kept getting German-language spam and got into trouble with my gay readers...

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    1. I don't know what language most of my spam was in, but the ones that bug me are the ones that semi-sorta try to tie in their "reply" to something that might have been spoken about on the blog at one point with random links that make less sense than Flavor Flav!

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  5. I was also going to say although I do not click through and comment every day I read all your posts through RSS feed.. Some people might not click in to your other posts but still read them.

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    1. That's cool and I'm glad to hear it.

      I don't think I could ever blog mainly about poker anyway because it's really kind of boring.
      I think Rob does a fantastic job because most of his poker posts aren't really about poker, but more about observances and the characters he plays with.

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    2. Oh wow....almost missed that nice compliment as I have been busy in Vegas, driving home and now finding that my desktop PC which I thought was more or less will not fully Windows upon my return home.

      So thanks for the kudos. My site is unique, it's true. Who else combines vaginas and poker?

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    3. "What else combines Vagina's and poker"

      The women that TBC Pays to watch him play?

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  6. grrouchie did you talk to a lawyer about what happened with the oil change?

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    1. I have been in contact with one and things are moving along

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  7. Take them to the cleaners for being ass holes about the situation.

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  8. I have known you a long time and I can tell the difference between the person you were "back in the day" and the person you are now (or becoming). I like both, personally. I like the way you could always make me laugh, but I also like how you give me advice and support when things get a bit rough for me. The transition going on in my life currently has me bummed sometimes, but thankfully, you are there with a kind word....and funny comments as well. I appreciate it. Thanks for being a good friend. :o)

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    1. It's people like you that help me to believe that there is hope left in the world for people like me.

      No matter what my personality was, High School version, College version, Post education version, or current version it's nice to have a few friends who have been there almost the entire time who have seen me grow and develop and make really bad jokes along the way and still somehow find it in them to accept me for who I am.

      Thanks for sharing!

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  9. By the way, I changed my name...lol. It might happen a few more times until I find one that I actually like. ;o)

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