---I cannot control how people make me look elsewhere, but I can control how people attempt to make me look on my own blog and thus, unfortunately, I am turning to having to moderate comments before they become posted. ---
I know that my non poker posts don't get many hits compared to when I actually talk about poker, but whatever.
Maybe by the time next year rolls around I'll actually be able to get out on a more regular basis and at least be able to come at y'all once a week with an actual poker post. However, until that time it's all random all the time.
Today is kind of debt-centric.
Of course, I have had the minor setback of the $6300 oil change which I started detailing here. However, even that is just a minor setback at this point.
The funny thing is that other than my initial annoyance I really haven't let that get me down. I reacted to it well and am of the opinion that even if I cannot get the guy or company to pay for the damaged that was caused I can live with that and have no ill will. I truly am trying to turn over a new leaf and look at life differently and I think that the biggest determining factor is the fact that I am so close to being out of debt that adding a little bit more temporarily doesn't sent me into a panic and depression and an "Oh shit, how am I going to afford this" like it used to.
No, now I look at it as a "shit happens" type of scenario that I will overcome and learn from. This is a totally different grrouch than the past and I am thankful for it.
I am also trying to turn over some other new leaves in my life. I am trying to be more patient and nicer in general. I am trying to be less rude and offensive (towards other people). I'm still going to be rude and I'm still going to make my jokes but I am going to go back to making them focused on me. Self Deprecating humor is pretty much the best shit there is anyways and I can say whatever I want and others won't take offense because the joke is on me and not on them. This will take time, but I'm working on it - one insult at a time.
In this section here I wrote and deleted 2-3 paragraphs worth of words about 7 times.
I guess that means that whatever I was trying to express I should keep to myself or that I just haven't found the right words to put it into proper perspective. I am unsure of which is the correct answer though.
It's going to take a while but I should turn it into it's own separate post. This is one of those few ideas that I need to figure out a way to flesh out and let it become whatever it needs to become.
It's about mortality and relationships.
Of course, I could just fall asleep tonight and wake up never thinking about it again which would be easier :)
Speaking of which - I'm really tired for some reason. I think it has to do with having to be in a long boring meeting for 8 hours. I do not miss the classroom setting!
*Right before posting* This post was less debt-centric than I had planned - but I don't want to delete the whole thing and not have something to post!
Stay Thirsty My Friends